Be careful what you wish for...

I have always wanted kids. Sean’s boys were already grown. But he had two more young children living with him. I eventually learned that they were to be adopted. Instant family!! Yay! Well….maybe not such a big yay. Over time, I realized that these kids had a lot of emotional problems. We tried to get them help. But, as they got older, the problems got bigger.
For their protection, I won’t give out their details, but I will say that anyone living with someone with  personality disorders and Reactive Attachment Disorder (or at least the symptoms), life can be hell. Just straight up, no kidding, I want to get out of this situation hell. Between the manipulation of and lying to others, and little to no support for parents, it can feel like a no-win situation.
We continued pouring our love into them. One decided to get help and try to work through their challenges. The other decided to blame us for everything and started on an all-out “rebel without a cause” war against us. At times, I honestly thought I was losing my mind. I was already under a lot of stress and with PTSD, my reactions were extreme. That’s mostly why I attended the Tulane IOP. I wanted, no NEEDED, to learn how to manage stress better. And it helped a lot! But the calmer I “appeared”, the harder the other child/teen tried to push me to my breaking point. It got so bad that Sean, normally a very chill, patient man, lost his temper, got frustrated, lost hope, searched for answers, etc. It was hard watching him give up. That’s where we are now. Trying to figure out our next best move.
But, we still manage to take a few trips a year. And, we have plans…fun, adventurous plans. And we want to share our adventures with you! Maybe you’ll connect with something I write, or find out new information on a place to visit, or just want to follow us. Whatever your reason, I hope you enjoy what I write and share!